[Sorey meets Zaveid's eyes, finally, at his tone before looking back down at his knees. It's not like the question requires thought; Zaveid wants his honest feelings, and Sorey will give them to him. Whether or not that influences any decision Zaveid makes, well, that doesn't have any bearing on what he needs to say.]
It's not out of guilt, [he begins, because he knows that for certain. It's not as if he's become the Shepherd again to try and right his wrongs, or to make up for what he'd done.] And when I first agreed to this in Ladylake, I really didn't know what I was getting into. Lailah warned me, but the reality of it just didn't sink in. Now...
[Sorey takes a deep breath and lifts his head to meet Zaveid's eyes again.] Now I truly know what it means to be a human being. [His hands clench between his knees to the point of pain as he tries to keep them from shaking.] I'm...I'm flawed. I'm capable of anger, and sadness, and loneliness. And I'm capable of ego. Everything that can make a human being generate malevolence, I have the potential for all of that inside of me.
I want to be the Shepherd because I- I want to accept all of myself. I was raised by seraphim, and...and sometimes I can't understand humans. But I'm also a human being, and now I know the pain and fear they experience when they feel trapped. I want to do everything in my power to make the world livable for both. So humans can live without that fear, and so seraphim can live without that corruption.
[Sorey bows his head.] I'm sorry it's such a selfish reason. Sometimes it feels a little like being torn between two families, but I don't want there to be sides. To be an 'us' and a 'them.' If there's a way to bridge the gap between the ideals of seraphim and the ideals of humans, I want to spend the rest of my life searching for it.
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It's not out of guilt, [he begins, because he knows that for certain. It's not as if he's become the Shepherd again to try and right his wrongs, or to make up for what he'd done.] And when I first agreed to this in Ladylake, I really didn't know what I was getting into. Lailah warned me, but the reality of it just didn't sink in. Now...
[Sorey takes a deep breath and lifts his head to meet Zaveid's eyes again.] Now I truly know what it means to be a human being. [His hands clench between his knees to the point of pain as he tries to keep them from shaking.] I'm...I'm flawed. I'm capable of anger, and sadness, and loneliness. And I'm capable of ego. Everything that can make a human being generate malevolence, I have the potential for all of that inside of me.
I want to be the Shepherd because I- I want to accept all of myself. I was raised by seraphim, and...and sometimes I can't understand humans. But I'm also a human being, and now I know the pain and fear they experience when they feel trapped. I want to do everything in my power to make the world livable for both. So humans can live without that fear, and so seraphim can live without that corruption.
[Sorey bows his head.] I'm sorry it's such a selfish reason. Sometimes it feels a little like being torn between two families, but I don't want there to be sides. To be an 'us' and a 'them.' If there's a way to bridge the gap between the ideals of seraphim and the ideals of humans, I want to spend the rest of my life searching for it.