No! No, he didn't even know he was- I was trying to help him.

This is so hard to explain.

Uh, I'd been adjusting poorly up until then, but I was still managing. But one day he'd gotten hurt, so we armatized- merged kind of, it's a Shepherd thing, so that he could heal up.

He's suffered a lot. But when I tried to take on some of his burden, I couldn't quite...manage.

I'm sorry, is this making sense?