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[That's the idea. Being around Sorey helps a little, but there's no denying it's something physical. He ought to be resistant to fatigue!!!! But it's more than that, apparently.]

This probably isn't what you meant by sleepover.

[Still.]

If it's all the same to you, I'll stay in here for a while.

You can stay as long as you like, Dezel. Get some rest, okay? [It's frustrating, that Sorey can't do anything more than just act as a vessel for him, but he'll do his best to keep his soul nice and calm and shove all those anxieties in his heart as far away as possible to protect Dezel for them while he's trying to recuperate.

Sorey continues along his day, mindful of keeping quiet and calm while he's working and taking various engineering requests and trying to keep a ship in shape when he only knows about half of what he's actually doing. It's an exciting learning process with this kid. Once or twice he brushes against the edge of Dezel's soul to check on him, but more or less he leaves him to his own devices. Hopefully it's not lonely in there without the other seraphim. Maybe he should go get Mikleo and see if he'd be willing to tag along...]

[Dezel is present, but lost in thought. It really is like when seraphim recover from a bad fight. He can practically feel Sorey's concern, and it nags him, but there's not much to be done.

Towards the end of the day he finally stirs, feeling stronger. He materializes without any real warning. He's so used to people being unable to see him that he steps out whenever he wants.]

Hmph. Maybe it is the air after all. [What.]

The...air? [At least Sorey's still used to it, though he's starting to forget what it's like to suddenly have people beside you after being here for so long.

He pulls himself out from a maintenance hatch and sits on his heels, staring up at Dezel as he wipes his hands off.] Do you mean the polluted air from the surface?

[Dezel leans against the nearest wall. It's his greatest superpower.]

Yeah. I thought only humans were affected by it. I was there for weeks without a mask and I didn't feel bad until recently.

You were trying to clean up, right? [Mikleo was, and Sorey remembers hearing something about it.] Do you think it's because you interacted with your element? Mikleo was doing the same thing.

Probably.

[He braces himself for the part where Sorey gets upset that no one asked him to help. The worst part is that he might not even get angry, he'll just give Dezel that look and even being blind won't fucking help him.

But maybe he'll be okay this time around.]

Are you mad that we didn't invite you?

I'm not mad, [Sorey answers, maybe a little too quickly. Anger is a thing he tries real hard to avoid.

Well, that and bitterness and guilt and anything else negative. Gotta stay pure! For everybody's sake.]

I would've liked to be included, but I know you guys were thinking of protecting me. But, hey! I'm pretty useless without you guys. Even if all I can do in a situation is amplify your powers, let me know.

[GOTTA REPRESS EVERYTHING!!!!! YEAH!!!!

That said, Dezel still... feels bad. Maybe he's growing a conscience. Maybe he's starting to acknowledge it exists.]

You're not useless.

[He is somehow very firm on this fact.]

The only reason I haven't become a hellion is because you're here.

[this tsun motherfucker has always had a conscience, he's just too busy being vengeful to listen to it]

Is that so? [Rather than making him feel relieved, Sorey's even more worried. He'd known the malevolence around here is bad and depressingly prevalent, but he hadn't known it was that critical.] Dezel maybe we can move to your ship. Or you can come to ours. I know you like your space, but with my domain so limited in reach-

It's not a problem with your domain. [He doesn't let Sorey finish.] Before I made the pact, I... had Rose. That was enough to keep my desire for revenge from overwhelming me.

[He's still full of issues. Full of regret and sadness more than anger, now. Any anger he feels is directed at himself; he's been avenged in a way, and he's had a taste of heaven.

But he still wants what he can't have. And besides that--]

The fleet is practically dripping with malevolence. I don't know how you've managed.

It's not as bad for me as it is for Mikleo, or you. It's not pleasant, but...we've managed worse.

[Dezel still wants revenge? Well...it makes sense. He died before avenging any of his friends. Sorey can't tell him that they've taken care of Symonne either, since she and Heldalf are still very much at large and more or less running the show.

Would Dezel even be happy to hear she'd been defeated? Maybe it's something he feels he needs to do with his own two hands.]

I know I'm not Rose, [Sorey says simply, without any kind of self-pity. Rose is someone special to Dezel. Not just because of her purity, but because of who she is. Whether or not she knew it, she was his companion for years. To be without that familiarity, and in the middle of all this, after something as traumatizing as what had happened to him- Sorey, he hasn't been giving Dezel the concern he should. He needs to be more attentive.] I'm not Rose, [Sorey starts over, and this time he shifts so he's kneeling before Dezel, fists on his knees. This'll probably make him uncomfortable, but it helps Sorey feel more grounded, more sure.] But I'm still your Shepard. If there is anything I can do for you, I want you to tell me. If you feel like you can't- then you can just come to me and I won't ask. I'm still your holy vessel, no matter what, Dezel. I will be for the rest of my life.

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